Closure

"There are times I’ve suffered shipwreck in my journeys: In perils of robbers; In perils of false brethren; In perils of my own design. Yet, from these perils comes knowledge: Only from within may we truly shine."

"Smile" By Tupac Shakur

another line from the song
"And a man without a focus, life could drive him insane"

As I was sitting in front of the computer listening to this song, I realized the true value of finding anything higher in life. What is the use of philosophy when you have to fight for your meals? What is the use of science when you have to sleep with one eye open? What is the use of what I want to find when the whole world is suffering from the immediate pains? Why should I search when what the majority needs is so apparent and easy to give? I am searching for reasons, forgetting I have bread in my hands for these starving people at my feet. I am looking to the stars for a purpose when there are so many reasons to help shed in tears by my fellow human beings.

Give me reason, give me life, give me purpose, give me cause, but most of all let me give to this world what it has given me; meaning.

I have gotten a taste of that life, the life lived by unnecessary struggle. When Justice loses its distinction. I can see your faces, I can remember your names;

Cory
Joanna
Johnny (God)
Chris
Matt

I lived with you in that struggle, I saw what life can be like, and I still believe it was unnecessary. These are beautiful people, How can you keep me from sympathizing with them??? I would trust them anyday, live with them anyday. I suppose I fell into the phrase, "if you can't beat them, join them." I just wanted to pay a tribute of sorts to these friends, I have no idea where they are at in life but hopefully its not in the same or a worse place.

I am also releived to find that Jojo is alright, as I typed these words I had to find out, and she seems to be happy. She kept who she was (the good parts) and I am very proud to see that.
gotta get back to work as well, not a good night to write.