torn asunder

the only drawing I really cared about, was destroyed today beyond recognition. I feel like I have a piece of myself torn away that I will never be able to understand or feel again. This is too fucked for words. I am trapped in chaos now, obliterated within my own existence. It makes me want to cry but I don't think I know how anymore. Now I am just a paranoid, egocentric fuck lost in a drawing that doesn't exist anymore. lost in myself. I'm just so lost for words right now, it's not worth it. I can't say another thing, gone gone gone gone gone gone. I can't make it. goodbye.