Enlightenment

I would like to think that I have reached this point today, just from reading the definition on wikipedia. God it is such an awesome feeling, it is almost too great to handle. I am overflowing from my cup, and it is fairly hard to type.

Basically I just looked at the definition which was this;

Each person, each physical object, from the perspective of eternity is like a brief, disturbed drop of water from an unbounded ocean.

Now I have heard this metaphor many times before and thought this thought. (obviously in a pessimistic way.) But not quite in this way before. I always thought of the universe, everything, as contained within one concept. That it has a beginning and an end (which it physically does.) However this is putting the concept of eternity in a box. Sure the universe is all we can truly ever know to exist and all we can prove to exist so far. But I think the problem is that we tend to see the concept of eternity as dependant upon the existence of a physical realm. We even tend to contribute the eternal realm as something physical as well, a god. Something with capability to create. But I am not arguing the concept of a god being existent itself, I simply cannot tell you if that is true. I am saying that the thought that a god has to exist along with a devil, a hell, a heaven is putting a box around the idea. Making it physical.

Any person can ask, "well who made god? where did he come from?" easy, almost childish question. But we need to realise that children are closer to the moment of nothingness than we are, but they are bred to quickly forget this concept. Children are actually quite onto something. This is what is making god have a box. Eternity, by definition is a concept that outlives god. It is like a master of a house, Just because he dictates what goes in and goes out doesn't mean that he dictates the presence of it. The house is not demanded by the presence of a master, it is a passive relationship. This is the problem with the Christian god, most christian people tend to believe that heaven and hell exist in conjunction with the concept that god created everything. If god created everything did he create himself?

If heaven is the house of god you have to believe one of two things, he either made a box around himself to exist or that it is simply eternity. A concept that outlives god. But regardless I feel like god is not the bigger question here.

In all aspects of physicality, or concepts of it, eternity is something that can exist independent of it. supposing the universe was gone one day, it is not like it never existed in the first place. It did, that is the beautiful miracle that we lucky few got to witness. We are a product of the universe, therefore we have a connection to it. We are the universe. The concept that we compose our bodies and our bodies compose the universe is so simple but we forget it very easily. We tend to think that there is this separation of mind and body, and body from eternity. Our bodies are very much a part of eternity, perhaps a small part. But still a part. Just because something is small does not mean it is insignificant.

If something small such as the universe, is the only small point of uniqueness in a sea of nothing it is actually quite large isn't it?

Size is relative to the space it is in. Size is very relative to the other objects it is around as well. a house is big to an ant, almost as big as a redwood is to us. So then the universe could theoretically be much bigger to an ant than it would be to us? A universe to a theoretical god could be very small and heaven would therefore be larger to us than to god. and Eternity would be even more so.

But the question is this; is the capability to imagine this larger than the concept itself? just because something is contained within a box doesn't mean that it cannot imagine greater things outside of it. Suppose I drew a box on a piece of paper and then drew an unconnected line inside of it. Suppose this box was a metaphor for the universe and then the broken line was a metaphor for the universe as it is broken open to the space around it. Then the contents of the box symbolize a dimension that goes beyond the lines of the box itself. Are we in fact larger than life? At least in our own minds we are. . . . .
egotism at its finest proves nothing to anyone besides the beholder. because what does a fish care about how much imagination you have? But what do you care about what a fish thinks about you?

Size therefore doesn't matter, The ability to govern proves nothing when you are in fact already governed by the laws of nature. The ability to govern nature proves nothing when you are in fact governed by your own laws. The desire to govern is a very natural desire. God wants to rule it all, but one day we will all realize that chaos has a reign as well. We are all trying to battle chaos. Even god. His battle is free will. Without free will the world cannot genuinely exist (theoretically) in his mind. Solution for this; a choice, heaven vs. hell. Ying vs. yang. Ultimately when I look at a ying yang from now on I am going to think of it as order vs. chaos. But to draw it would be to not draw a circle around the other half, because that is containing it. The balance is an invisible line on paper but in reality not a line at all. A line is a very specific thing to attach to meaning, everything is not quite so black and white. Specific things can be blown up into general things and visa versa. True realization is realising they are connected. Balance by conflict.

So to follow my divine realization correctly everything I have just said is in fact quite negligible because it is fitting the concept of eternity neatly into a singular definition. For every drop of water in space there will be another, and for every positive there is a negative. Pessimism vs. optimism. Don't we wish we could only have one? but it would negate your existence. A person who can only be happy is not a person at all. A magnet that has only a positive charge is not in fact a magnet at all. In this case my pessimism was that the universe will end,

My optimism; that it does not matter in comparison to the here and now.

My realization: that nothing can truly disappear. Eternity out measures its own label, and its own master.