Its funny

It's very funny how suddenly I am in doubt of myself. I never was before, was I just conceited? Probably.
But nobody is truly selfless, every action has a reason behind it. But sometimes I am scared that I can reach the point where inaction could be very easily done. It is an art form, this life.

It's funny when I try to remember why I have a blog, I will write regardless. But there was one point in time where people wanted to read it. Now that nobody is there I start to wonder why I post these. It has become a place for me to scream out under some indication that there is someone inside the matrix of Internet and hardware that can hear me. Maybe even help me. I know plenty of people who think that I am a pussy when I say things like that, overly dramatic, emo, etc.... and I can obviously handle myself when left alone. But that does not mean that I like being left alone when I am reaching out. It is companionship that reminds me that I am alive and breathing. That I have meaning on this earth. Do I take it for granted sometimes? Yes, I am the worst at that. I have the greatest comfort knowing that Keenan will be there no matter what. You were always there, I did the worst shit to you. and you were still there. In that you are a jewel in my life. But can I bring up the guts to say it to you? I don't know.

So yes, yet another post of Dom screaming out once again. Silly Dom, doesn't he know that is not good for him? To worry about things beyond himself. They are all right, I am blinded by hope. I have got my head in the clouds, but at least I don't have it up my ass. Clouds are so much more pleasant.

Its a wonder how much I allow myself to be lead under false pretenses, or maybe even make them for myself. Its a survival mechanism for these crazy humans, lying keeps us alive. Ha, isn't it funny?

So you can try, and fail, to bring me down from the clouds. Try and Shoot down any sort of dreams and ambitions I may have. I know I'm crazy. I know I am too ambitious for my own good. Tell me something I don't know. Basically whats important in human eyes is this, love and everything else. Although I would very much desire something more, love is what I need as a human. And a place to scream.